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“There are so many hammocks to catch you if you fall,
so many laws to keep you from experience.
All these cities I have been in the last few weeks make me fully understand the cozy,
stifling state in which most people pass through life.
I don't want to pass through life like a smooth plane ride.
All you do is get to breathe and copulate and finally die.
I don't want to go with the smooth skin and the calm brow.
I hope I end up a blithering idiot cursing the sun -
hallucinating, screaming, giving obscene and inane lectures on street corners and public parks.
People will walk by and say, "Look at that drooling idiot. What a basket case."
I will turn and say to them
"It is you who are the basket case. For every moment you hated your job,
cursed your wife and sold yourself to a dream that you didn't even conceive.
For the times your soul screamed yes and you said no. For all of that.
For your self-torture, I see the glowing eyes of the sun! The air talks to me! I am at all times!"
And maybe, the passers by will drop a coin into my cup.”
-Henry Rollins
w.o.r.d.s.
Thursday, October 13, 9:55 p.m.
Whoa, my step family is the laziest group of people on the planet. Almost every day I load up the dishwasher and help wash and dry the pots and pans. No big deal. I always put the dishes I use in the dishwasher, or if they don't go in the dishwasher I at least rinse and stack them.
But I also end up hunting the house for dishes shoved between couch cushions, set on stairs, or just thrown randomly on the floor. I end up cleaning up everyone elses dishes, and the rest of their messes that they leave around the house.
As I recently bitched about, I really hurt my back a few days ago. And today when I came home I did the usual dish deal and then I also ordered supper for like 10 people, went and picked up the supper, set the table, loaded the dishwasher AGAIN, put away all the groceries (because no one else would help), did another set of dishes, put away leftovers and then tidied up the house.
Also, I nicely turned off the movie I was halfway through watching just so my wonderful stepmother could catch TV. The SAME show, in fact, that was being watched in the basement by her two children.
Throughout my doing all this Aimee was screaming at Therease, Therease was screaming at everyone. And everyone was complaining that they always have to do everything and everyone else is so self-centered.
Excuse me while I send out a big fuck you.
I'm the only person other than my father who cleans the house, I'm the only person who does dishes, I'm the only other person who cooks supper, I always give up the TV, I never ask to watch something else, I never play my music loudly when others are around (because Therease doesn't like my music so it's not allowed even though she blares hers all the time)
I'm frustrated right now because I'm sick, my back hurts like fucking hell, all anyone ever does around here is fight. And I mean, they have nothing to fight about. NOTHING. I swear to god they do it for sport, because no sane human being could get upset about the things that start screaming matches in this house.
Ugh.
