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“There are so many hammocks to catch you if you fall,
so many laws to keep you from experience.
All these cities I have been in the last few weeks make me fully understand the cozy,
stifling state in which most people pass through life.
I don't want to pass through life like a smooth plane ride.
All you do is get to breathe and copulate and finally die.
I don't want to go with the smooth skin and the calm brow.
I hope I end up a blithering idiot cursing the sun -
hallucinating, screaming, giving obscene and inane lectures on street corners and public parks.
People will walk by and say, "Look at that drooling idiot. What a basket case."
I will turn and say to them
"It is you who are the basket case. For every moment you hated your job,
cursed your wife and sold yourself to a dream that you didn't even conceive.
For the times your soul screamed yes and you said no. For all of that.
For your self-torture, I see the glowing eyes of the sun! The air talks to me! I am at all times!"
And maybe, the passers by will drop a coin into my cup.”
-Henry Rollins
w.o.r.d.s.
Friday, October 7, 5:22 p.m.
It's officially weird to be in Regina. I can't really explain the problem...I think it's just that I'm kind of stuck in between at the moment. Being in Regina feels oddly familiar but at the same time everything is different.
Any sign that I ever lived in this house has been removed, what's left is kind of scattered around in the basement storage area waiting to be picked through and then chucked out. My room is now an office with green walls...and my sisters room has been changed too. There's no cable TV, and really...no channels at all. Even the internet server is different.
My head is filled with memories of what is WAS like living here, and I know that it's the same place but it's hard to make the connection.
Today I kind of sat on the floor of my old room and looked around but nothing really clicked. It's just so different.
I also went to Balfour today to see people, and it felt weird being there. I was hugging all my friends and I was in the art rooms that I used to spend so much time in...I was thinking, "I should be in these classes. I should be at school today making stupid noises with Jasmin" and I wasn't and I really felt so completely seperate from everything.
Anyways, that's...it I guess. I forgot to post this thing. Yeah.
